Guess who's back?

I finally did it. 

It was the end of April when I left him.

I've spent 7 years with that man.

When I realized how long it had been and how sad I actually was it made me angry.

He said he doesn't understand why I am so angry with him.

It makes me laugh when I think about it.

Of course, he didn't understand, when he didn't actually listen to what I was asking him to do. 

But that's his problem now. 

I moved to the south and I'm loving this heat.

Everyone keeps telling me to wait till July, supposedly I'll change my mind. We will see. 

I moved all my clients online (your girl is a fitness coach remember?) and my plan is to travel a lot.

To do all things I wanted to do but he held me back from doing them. 

Or all the things I didn't know I wanted to do.

Like skydiving. 

Have any of you tried it? 

I'm still a bit afraid of that. But I meet someone that does it regularly.

She said fear never goes away.

Doesn't that make you think? Always afraid but always doing it?

I admire that.

Maybe I'll move back home to Europe? Maybe move to Asia? 

Also when I say move I'm using it very loosely.

I imagine myself living in all these different places and countries for about 3 months. 

So many options!

But I'm pretty excited and so much happier than I could ever imagine I'd be.

Life can be so good when you get rid of negative influences. When we get rid of energy suckers. 

I'm not saying my life is easy now. Nor that anyone's life should be easy. 

But challenges I experience now expand me and help me become the person I want to be.

It's not just endless suffering like my marriage was. 

And after all, I'm grateful for that relationship. It taught me what I wouldn't learn otherwise. 

And I'm grateful for you reading this, watching, chatting, tipping...

you helped me open my eyes to who I actually am. 

Love,

Dee